H1N1 @_@

yesterday melaka have 1 person died because of H1N1.
aiyo...so scary.
so we need to take good care of ourselves.
drink plenty of water...
wear face mask when going out...
dont always go out because H1N1 very dangerous o...
bring umbrella when going out,
because the weather sometimes hot sometimes cold.
dont simply eat outside food because nowadays the food maybe have alot of chemical ingredients.
today i ate outside then my stomach ache liao...go toilet for many times.
so we need to be careful...

what a bored holiday!

emmm,tomorrow need to go college liao!
the holiday passed too fast!
i still in the honey moon feel.
tuesday go kl to find a friend.
i bought 11am bus ticket but i was late...
so i need to pay half price and buy 12pm's ticket.
then go eat mcdonals while waiting.
haiz...wasted money only!
12pm lor...i go into the double storey bus.
then i sleep...like a pig.(cos tired gua)
2.10pm,i reach puduraya.
but my friend havent reach yet so i have to waiting for him...
time passing...5minutes,10minutes,15minutes.
wah...i waiting for 50minutes,he just arrived!
actually i was angry...because waiting is the most anguish for me.
but suan le ba!
at night,we go cyber cafe only.
he said this is the life of him.
but i still feel ok lar,because no need waste so much money.
emmm...yup. i agreed!
today,i was coming home because i missed my boyfriend so much!
hehe...really!
so we dint go anywhere actually.
just go cc play game and watch movie only.
never mind...i feel that is ok.
i want come again with my friends next time.
to go shopping enough enough!
weee weeee...
i want shopping! i want shopping!!
haha!!
who wants join?
can register with me now!

Beware of H1N1@_@

wao...i have a week holiday from last thursday(23/7) til next thursday(30/7).
(but the time passing very fast,today already tuesday liao)
u know y suddenlly i get holiday?
haha...it is because my college (KOLEJ YAYASAN MELAKA) get suspected have H1N1!!
wah...very scared!
oopss..not my college,is the hostel only.
so started from 23/7 weeeeweeeee...we have an early holiday.

that day,my class mate asked me,is it the class for afternoon cancel already?
i said i dont know,i need to confirm with my other class mate first.
but the other class mate confirmed already,we have to go to the class.
then i and my cousin on the way to go college...we received a call.
my classmate called to say:
"haha...no need to go class liao,class cancelled".
as a kepoh,i still wan go to college see what had happened.
1omins,i reach college liao...
most of my chinese friends was waiting at the car park...
they enjoyed talking there.
then they told us about the matter that happened.
many students go inside college so long,they still cant come out.
because there are some medical expert at the hall to check students' n lecturers' body...
luckily i dint go in,if not i might be quarantine...
because i still coughing,1 week already,very dangerous!
i heard the news that our college have to close for 1 week to check/confirm whether our college get infected or not...
all my friends very happy,but i never...
because i m thinking about my tuition.
if we get holiday then there must have a lot of replacement classes for our course after open school.
then my time will crash again...
aiyoyo...my head pening liao la!!
how? teach me!!
the parents would very suspect me!
they will feel messy!
haiz...
y always like this de?
cannot let me relax meh?!
wuuu wuuu... ...

im going to crazy!!

im just fnish teaching a year 2 student in my tuition centre.
i gonna crazy already...
i teach so many times,she stil dont understand!
is it my teaching manner have problems or she has mental problems?
haiz...i really wanna give up already!
im not saying she is stupid but this time i really want to say she is already...
she catched up something very slow.
i teach her for half year alreasy...i cant see any improvement of her.
i think my teaching does not have problems lor...it is her problemsss.
ahhhh!!! help me!
how? how to tecah her?
my mind already very messy d...she still make me like this.
a very wonderful saturday,she makes my brain gonna crazy liao.
a class only have one student...
that is already a big problem for me.
one student also can makes me crazy...
i think she is the first!
i shouted at her,she also dint scared.
still smile at me!
geram man!!!
what the hell of this pupil?
someone told me,her result very worse at school...
but i think i stil can afford...
now i think i really gonna tention already!!
ahhhhhhh!!!!!!
my brain gonna exploited already!!
very boring... donno what to do?
my brain suddenly blank...
i need to calm down...
~~inhaled...exhaled...
ok d!

ya,i have changed my tuition time.
most of the students ok...
but some not ok leh...
need to change some more.
let me think first ba...

~~im sot sot liao~~

huuhh!!
my college get suspected has H1N1...
so dangerous!
n i also coughing for so many days already.
i m so scared i wil get H1N1......
but i wont get it gua...

my college going to close for 1 week.
then i can rest for 1 week already.
but after a week,i wil so busy lor.
cos my class wil have alot of class replacement.
then it wil crash with my tuiiton class.

siao liao lor...
charm liao lor...
cialat liao lor...
u all wont understand my feeling de lar...
haiz...

要生病了+_+

差不多一个礼拜了。。。
晚上睡觉时，总是咳个不停。
好辛苦哦！
在学校上课不能咳太大声，会吵到同学。
但忍着真的辛苦哦！
要吐的感觉。。。
吃糖果来解痰，但看起来无效。
haiz...好惨哦！
怎么办?
我最怕自己没声的了。
声音是我的一切。

加油！ 病魔走开！

Shelbiechua 已參加 你現在想著誰？ 測驗，結果是 不能在一起的人
他/她的味道總在四周遊蕩...想念得好像溶進血液裡... 好吧，請由今天在月曆上寫下︰『放開別人，放開自己』 別讓眼淚白流。好好愛自己，別人才懂愛你。

玩了那么多quiz,这个结果最令我振奋。
吓呆了，它怎么知道的？
我头脑真的在想一个不可能在一起的人，答案竟然是一样的！
厉害！厉害！

Shelbiechua 已參加 你喜歡偷情的感覺嗎? 測驗，結果是 66~79%曖昧型
睇到呢個答案既你仍然知道自己係有一個男女朋友,但係會背住對方跟其他異性發性曖昧性行為,亦有可能跟第三者發生進一步行為,但你仍然知道有男女朋友存在,這類人真是摸不著頭腦~_~

这个呢？ 有待试验!
哈哈。。。 就算有没有都不能说出来吧！

missing you......

hello,what a damn tired sunday!
yesterday sleep at midnight 2something...
sleep until 10something,but still tired.
just now when i watching astro,my brain appear somebody...
haha...i was thinking about the things that we done in the past.
what we have done?

we are a pair of very good friend.(for me...for her,i dont know.)
for me,she is very beautiful and soft.
but quite lazy,same wiz me lar...
she always dreaming to have a very good life....
cos she really has a sweet look.
she has a quite rich family,
has a good mother...
she has a real good boyfriend,but she still has many boyfriends outside.
actually,we have been best friend for so long,i still dont know what is she thinking about...
she has impose me alot... and i think i m still treating her very good...
(for the real,i think i m too good in treating friend)
but they always treat me as what? i dont know!
she called me to go out,to bring her some where,i never say no.
but she...i called her,she said next time need to make appointment earlier with her.
never mind larrr,i know she is very busy...so many guys dated her.

i stil remember what she said,so when she is going to age 19years that year,i was appointed her for a week before,and she said no problem...
she wil going to meet us at 14july2007.
she should know why i appointed her on that day...
but on that day,at the time i appoint her,she sms to say she is not free to come...
cos she is at PUB with her x-classmate...
then we all really very disappointed for it.
then what to do...we just celebrate for who the coming birthday lor...
we are very happy that day,although she was never appear...
but then i really very angry that time.
so next day is her birthday,i sms her saying "happy birthday" and maybe in the message,i make her feels sorry to us gua...
she replied sorry to all of us.
i said to her just forget it...
but for me,she would never feels sorry to us,just wan to appease us only...

on the january 2008,she called me...saying she is staying hospital...
i really shocked,and i go visitted her next day.
she is very happy to see me,and we talked many things...
but i think she still keeping alot of secret from me.
then she told me that she will be healed soon and asked me no need to go visitted her again...
for the week,i really busy and i dint go to see her again...
one day,when i was working,my friend called me,telling me that she is very suffer now and now she transferred to hospital selayang...
then i planned to go visit her on saturday...
but she was gone on the next day night.......
it was really unexpected n i really cant accept...
i cried for the whole night.
i was thinking so much things about us.
since kinder garten,we have known each other.
although we just been good friend from form 1 or form 2 or form 3...
but really,really... we have alot of sweet memories togother.
we singing together.
we skipping school,go eat bak kut teh.
we was hang out at the play ground,and we done alot of things there.
i go her house and she make up for me.
we sleep,chat and play together...
but now where is she??
i really missed her...
her voice,her style/patterns,her smell,her laugh...
i missed so much things about us...
but... what to do?
she was gone to another world...

15 july is her birthday,i was so busy that day...
i study from morning until 10pm,
so i dint have time to visit her...
but i hope she knows my heart.

how many ten years in our life?
the most important is happy!
人生有多少个十年？最重要活得痛快！

I dont know wat to say today...

actually i dont know what i going to say today...
but i feel to write something...
hmmm...what to say leh?

i still havent find any way to slove my problems.
i m going to change my tuition time.
cos it is really need to be changed.
but i dont know how to tell those parents.
i scared they wil confuse n suspect me...
and maybe the pupils or parents wil busy at the time i have changed.
i have to find a way to tel them...
i tel many friends about my problems.
but they cannot really help me in it.
cos they dont know my feeling.
they just simply say and they thought they can appease me...
but never mind la,they stil my good friend,as long as they are listen to me.
some friends said:"just change lo,no need to think so much."
someone said:"change to after study time la..."
but after my study is already 10pm,he means i need to teach until 12am larr?
haiz...useless friend.
some said:"be patient,everything will be ok"
ya,i know it will be ok,but when??
someone said:"dont worry,i will be always support u!"
maybe this is the most suitable words to encourage me...
i feel comfortable to hear it...hehe!
cos this is from my bf...
thank him so much cos he always listen to me and let me put my bad temper to him...
and i also need to thank alot of people cos they are really give me alot of comfort,
although they are talking meaningless...

but truly,problems will be solved by patiently...
and not by hurry...

i will tel u all my latest news in my posts ooo...

haiz~~

I dono wat is the feeling tat i should hav now?
I said i don want to think so much... but i keep thinking thinking n thinking.

Actually today im staying my sis house(Paya Rumput),doing my assignment.
11smthg,my 'best' fren calling...
She said her car spoil at the noon,tmr no car to work.
So she calling me for help.
I thought she need me to fetch her work.
Actually she juz wants me to send her to her friend's house,
cos her friend can fetch her go work tmr...
Then i think over about 30seconds then i agree to go bring her to her friend's house(Klebang).
I driving quite fast,after 20mins,i reach her house(Sungai Udang).
We go lim teh at Pulau Gadong first...
So long we dint sit down n listen to our problems ad...
But i dono y i feel don wan to talk to her anymore.
I talk a bit my things to her only...
She also talk her things to me...
She said her problems more serious than mine.
I replied her:
"Not the problems we facing serious or not,juz we have our own problems need to be solved.
Every persons also hav problems de..."
Then we silent for awhile.
But wat the feeling i have is we r not sincere already...
We r not kid anymore...
We have our own life to go on.
As we grow up,the problems wil also grow.
Juz the way we survive is different already.
After that,she said she have to leave n go her friend's house.
I send her to the place then i leave there n go back to my home(Tangga Batu).
I reach my home around 1.00am.
M i stupid?
She is my good friend...
After reach home,i tell my mum about it.
I feel im stupid to fetch her go there.
So far... 'suan le ba', i tel myself.

Now already 3.00am, later i have a 8.00am class,but i have no the feel to slp.
I m chatting with my friends.
A near friend but feel very far...
(Do u get what i mean?)
I see him everyday,but we totally don talk at school.
Y? I also dont know!
Mayb cos the things tat happened in the past?
For the real,i cant forget the feeling to him immediately...
I need time... to forget.
Is it difficult for me to forget about the moments?
Mayb i have forgotten about it,but i stil wil thinking about it.
(Haiz...wat m i talking about leh?)

My body always shake...i dont know why!
Not bcos of cold... but always like this!
Maybe cos tired?
This is the first day i slp late since opening school.
Tired already... wanna slp liao.
Good night everybody!

~~A lot of trouble~~

Haiz...
It is 2nd week of study.
It is stil the same like my last post.
4 good frens divided to 3 groups...
Erm...but i think tat was nthg for me ad.

Now i m thinking about my school timetable n tuition timetable...
Last week when i get my school timetable,i was so happy.
Cos all the time dint crash wiz my tuition time.
I telling my sis about tis happily.
But tis week,everything was changed.
My economic n account lecturer change the study time...
He changed the time to tue n wed night,from 8pm-10pm.
N my tuition time is tue,wed,thurs night also.
He mess me up...
I need to change my tuition time.
How??
I have alot of things to think.
I cant simply change the tuition time...
Wat the parents will thinking about tis teacher?
Furthermore, it is very accumulate...
need to study till so late.

2nd thing is: my study...
My head become very big now!
BM,BI,Economic n Marketing r not too difficult for me,
Cos i hav some basic about tat.
But i have to study about Account n Statistic tis sem...
Wao...those r too difficult for me!
Cos i have no basic about tat.
So confuse~
Emmm... i think i need to really study hard about it!

3rd thing is: my tuition centre...
I m thinking to close it end of tis year.
Cos so many things to do for my study.
I want to spend more time for my study.
N also,i cant get much money in teaching.
Juz can get rm400 per month.
For the rental n bill,rm180-rm200.
Broadband rm68.
Eat,petrol,entertainment... bla bla blarr need so much $$$.
Haiz... so now the important thing is......
I also dont know!
I want to close it cos i think i hav spent too much time n petrol money for centre.
Not worth at all...
But i have to discuss with my partners- my sis n cousin.
Juz c wat is their suggetions...

Haha~~
I really cant think so much larrr...
Juz b natural...
'= =

开学咯！

终于两个月过去了。
第一次感觉假期是那么的慢过。
开学已进入第四天，原来有不同的感觉。
大家都改变了。
好朋友已不再是朋友，开口说话也没有！
看着他，我什么都不能做！
看着那个贱人,真的很想把他吊起来打！
上课大家都分开坐得远远的...
开始要分组做assignment了，原来到最后我是一个人。
我不要一个人，但还有谁？！
为什么我总是一个人？
原来以前的我只有你们这几个朋友...
现在你们不再是我的朋友了，我就是一个人的我了...
我只是要跟他做回朋友，可以吗？
我很想放弃，但我对自己说：
“如果现在放弃，之前所做的岂不是白费了吗？
一个sem~半年要浪费掉吗？”
我不要也不会！
“或许过些日子会不同呢？”
只好安慰自己...
我会加油！